CW: Genitals, Sex, Dysphoria
Trans Joy is a weekly blog series celebrating the positive side of trans experiences, in an attempt to bring some balance to contemporary trans discourses. This week I’m talking about how I relate to my genitals.
As an enby who often leans towards femme presentation my relationship with my genitals can be fucking complicated. Sometimes I’m perfectly comfortable with my cock, and other times touching it is painfully dysphoric, a reminder that my body doesn’t match the identity I feel that day (off topic, I have so much love for all my partners who communicate with me to respect this moving boundary).
One day when I was feeling dysphoric about my dick (but also mad horny xD) I decided to try something different. Over my panties I began to touch myself, not as I normally do, but how I would touch a cunt. Rubbing and teasing, thinking of my cock as a big swollen clit to rub and lick. Finding that new way to relate to my genitals gave me a new way to feel sexy and brought a kind of freedom.
It combines arousal with gender euphoria in a way that I adore. More than that, it feels good to not let dysphoria win, to find a way around it and not let it restrict what I can do by dictating what feels comfortable to me. Winning against dysphoria, as well as finding gender euphoric sex, is a wonderful feeling.
I hope you all find some joy this week too ❤ If you want to contribute to this project then please get in touch 🙂 If you want to support the project you can order a zine here.
